i made a new sofos journal
guysss today im having a big cup of coffee and it is actually such a yumalicious or whatever they call that!! i just planned what
my entire wardrobe is going to look like, and i am so excited. it is going to be super vibrant instead of being super ugly!!!!
443pm
today i am going to have a pumpkin flavor bagel, and it is going to be extremely delicious.
1130pm
HAPPY FALL!!!! HAPPY SEPTEMBMER!!!
fall is the PERFECT mood for writing. GUESS WHAT. i wrote four thousand four hundred seventy six words of my book. isnt that so many!!! i want to write so much more though!!! now
i am getting way attached to the side characters who im...going to kill off later. ;-;
its ok though.
anywayyyy its coming along really nicely. i only have like third chapters though, and the third chapter is longer than the first two chapters combined lol. i shall update more if i
ever update more! goodbye!
1019am
GOOD MORNING!!!!!!! i woke up this morning and it was so interesting! guess what. tomorrow is FALL. my SECOND FAVORITE SEASON.
YES i know that fall starts on september TWenty first or sometimes even the twenty second but like...september is fall. tomroow
is septemmbetr. tomorrow iS FALL.
ok now that i got the fall announcement out of the way. i must tell you that i am super excited to make more website!! i was
looking at one of my old documents where i had written the whole list of stuff i wanted to include and it made me have joy in my
life. so, expect more website coming soon! but not too soon. like dont get your hopes up too much. or like if you are dreading me
updating my website, then you dont have to dread it AS much.
anyway!! i dont even know what i am going to use sofos journal for these days. probably something amazing. goodbye!
1228pm
hello to people! today is going to be a dAY! i do not know a good day or a bad day but it is just going to be a regular day
because i am going to start my schedule.
i am not going to write very many things here though because otherwise i will write way too much lol. i just needed to write
something though! do you ever just want to start a website? and then realize you already have a website?!?
i had a bit of coffee but i think i need an entire new coffee. after 2 coffees, my life will be complete
1244pm
i had a realization that my life is complete even with just 1 coffee.
516am
good morning my friendly people. or maybe unfriendly people?! i hope not them. i woke up at 455am when my annoying phone alarm
started ringing. i intentionally put it further away from my bed so that i will actually have to get up, which kind of works but
the issue is then i get up and turn it off and go back to bed. so i brought out my sunrise alarm and plugged it in and programmed
it to have a 5am alarm. that will be good for tomorrow but not good for today. i have zero idea how to make coffee so i have to
wait until everyone else gets up, and i can't do the microwave coffee because i don't want to wake everyone up with the microwave
and i am also too lazy. YES i am one of the people who just drinks coffee instead of getting enough sleep. however, there will be
a time when i have fixed my sleep schedule and then i shall only drink coffee for entertainment and relaxation purposes. well
now that makes it sounds like drugs lol. i mean it is but its not like one of those spooky drugs.
ok enough about drugs lol. now it is time to do something useful with my life. i am tired thoughh. maybe it is coca cola time but
the sugar. we only have the off brand coca cola anyway. what i need is like a caffeinated root beer. yummmm that would be so
DELISH!! do people even say delish? i think not. well it is 529am right now (btw i just don't use the time colon because i
started using it on my phone notes and its way quicker to just put the numbers, but it also looks cool so i started doing it on
my computer too) and i think people will probably be awake at 6am to make coffee so it's not worth it to have a whole can of coke
at 533am in the morning ;-;. just think of the large numbers of sugar!! ok i eat way worse stuff but pop is not even that
delicious unless you are really in the mood for it. even root beer!
i actually have no clue what to do for 24 minutes. i do not have internet access until 6am either. i am thinking it might be time
to play a beta minecraft but it fills me with dread. i can do that without the internet but the monsters are totally going to get
me. let me quickly explain how terrifying it is. there are no beds. no sprinting. no shields. torches and armor are barely
functional. food does not stack. monster spawners everywhere. impossible to swim against flowing water so just hope a zombie does
not corner you. and the zombies have long arms! uGH!
its 544am i am finally getting close to having internet and being able to save this entry. i guess journalling is a good way to
become entertained even if i am tired. i am still not feeling the most wonderful today which is possibly because i consumed
a small amount of 18 hour old coffee that was leftover from yesterday. i was desperate!!! i intend to finally start waking up
early, so i cant just go back to sleep, but i do not have willpower which is why i need coffee. "WHAT IS WILL POWER?" ASKED TOAD.
that is question i relate to in my life. i am staring at my screen trying to absorb all the nice blue light for its apparent
waking people up properties. it is kind of working. i do have 3 minutes of ratatouille music loaded on another tab so i am
listening to it waiting for the internet to come back on. oh wait i remmbered that food is energizing and makes me feel not sick.
its yogurt time i guess.
lol i suddenly remembered a memory in which i got up at 7am, which is so unlikely that my parents were questioning whether it was
me or if it was an intruder. (i used to mostly wake up in the afternoon). oh HERE is the song where ratahottie is putting
ingredients in the soup. tasty!
613am i was just looking at my old sofosjournal, and i do not recall my exact reasons for starting a new one, but i think i
understand. i was NOT having a good time last school year and reading those entries is bringing back those awful memories. i
feel like a different person from back then even though it was only a few months ago. i am really mostly the same person with the
same bad habits but at least now i get 8 hours of sleep and am not constantly stressed all the time. i keep forgetting i dropped
out of college, which is like a loser thing probably, but maybe everyone else can be a winner in comparison? hmm i am not sure.
well, i am at least a not stressed loser. i AM trying to get a job and stuff though but i need to fix some other things in my
life first, like waking up not in the afternoon.
anyway i MIGHT add my old sofosjournal back to my website (i mean, you can still access it, but i mean i might add the link back
back lol) because whatever made me want to make the new sofos journal is probably gone now or maybe it is still here? it was
probably just a random impulse. despite my complaining about the awful memory journal entries, it is actually a vibe and it is
making me feel like i was a legitimate human person back in 2025 and 2026. when i try to remember anything from after 2023, i
can't recall the feeling of what was my identity, or who even was i and where was i in life, but the journal is helpful for
having SOME sense of that. do y'all ever feel like you don't even know who you are. i used to actively journal about stuff in my
real actual journal and i think my mental health problems gave me some sense of identity, and now i have at least recovered from
being super depressed, which is obviously really good, well and i guess i still have mental health problems like ocd which i have
not recovered from ;-; but constantly feeling anxious and freaking out about if i did a sin is way less romantic than constantly
feeling sad and worthless, and ofc none of those are good but i just have no sense of identity anymore!! ALSO i am a person who
values being a society, and i used to have like a FRIEND GROUP or like...FRIENDS! i still have friends but why does it not feel
the same as when we were first friends :(
BECAUSE of these problems i decided that i need to sign up for something!! oh yes and what i was saying about 2025 and 2026 is
that when i am reading that journal about that time, it no longer feels like a blank space in my life, like taylor swift. and
then i remember that i am a SEPARATE human person who EXPERIENCES things and not just a FLOATING brain in the middle of space.
anywway!!! i accidentally was journalling for too long and now it is 704am which is too late. it is yogurt time!!
1018am
i have now played a minecraft because i need minecraft in my life. i made a new schedule which involves numerous amounts of minecraft. since i did not do anything today and i
already played minecraft for 2 hours, i am going to do the parts of my schedule that do nOT include minecraft, until i am caught up! the first thing is put stuff in my purse and
i think everything is pretty much already in there except for maybe my phone, and then i need to put stuff in my backpack and i mostly have everything in there as well besides
maybe my laptop, but i will be using my laptop so i don't even need to put it away. right now i'm on my desktop computer which is why this paragraph is longer than the previous
ones. i STILL havent finished my yogurt lol!!! dont worry it hasn't been sitting out all this time, because i have been sitting with it, so it cancels out. ok that made no sense.
let me see what is next on my nice schedule. i love minecraftttt.
117pm
y'all i am having a good hair day but what is more important is that i am having a day of not very much energy.
actually nevermind, the hair is more important. but the not very much energy is also true. i am having a peanut
butter ice cream cone which is YUM! i woke up at 5am but i did not feel very well due to female thingys so i went
back to sleep and then i stayed asleep until 1041am which is late to get up. i was still not feeling well but i
went downstairs and my mom noticed i am tired and she suggested coffee. i had been considering just not doing my
schedule, but after having coffee i felt like doing my schedule. i went outside for a while and i fixed the
minecraft part of my website but now it is 129pm and i just want to play minecraft! what do you think. do you think
i should play minecraft, or do you think i should be a productivity. i still have coffee left, so i could
potentially drink it and then do my schedule. alternatively, i could drink coffee, play minecraft, and then do my
schedule but then the coffee might have worn off. i think i may need to do the thing where i play minecraft in odd
hours and schedule in even hours, but it is an odd hour right now so maybe i will switch it and do schedule in odd
hours so that i can do some schedule before the motivation wears off. ok i will do it noww
to motivate my schedule i have a music playlist in the background, but it is one of those dark ambient ones and the
first song is snowfall, uhh idk how motivating this is going to be lol. i love snowfall so much it is such a song
have you heard it? i think you probably have, since it is in basically every ambience. i used to listen to it all
the time when i was super depressed but having an aesthetic time at the same time. it makes me feel nostalgic and
happy when i listen to it. well i might as well have a nostalgic and happy song for my schedule. now it is playing
a song that i have never even heard before. the first thing for my list is put stuff in purse and backpack.
149pm
fabulous idea: i am going to put most of the stuff in my purse and just have stuff like my journal and sketchbook in
my backpack.
152pm
i need to find my berry agua fresca chapstick! i have an idea about where it is. probably in my chapsticks drawer
in my upstairs! im taking my laptop with me.
155pm actually it was just in my backpack lol!! well ok yup. i am going to put some on. the reason i am using this
type is because it is the first in alphabetical order. i also used it a lot in high school, but i think that besos
dragonfruit lemon was the type i used the most, along with stay sweet strawberry (they were valentines themed lol).
i like the berry agua fresca though, because it reminds me of my grandma's house for an unknown reason. i think it
smells like her kitchen a little bit. i need each time to have a unique feeling. each time is an amount of time
where i do 1 schedule, which is i do the morning routine and i do the night routine and i do the event (an event is
where you go to the dentist or therapy or watch the gabby cats movie with the children) and i do the daily activity
which is something i pick from a random number generator from my list of lists. that probably does not make sense to
you people and it may not make sense to me the next time i read this, but it makes sense to me right now and that is
what matters probably lol.
210pm
oh yes anyway but every time i finish 1 schedule, then i change all of the aesthetic and i change what overwatch person i am
going to play (only the secondary person, because i will always play illari as my main hero because she has a similar personality
type to me) because basically right now the hero i love playing is mercy because she is the soft girl aesthetic, but also i only
use the zhuque and winged victory skins because i am not exactly a real angel and i feel like the actual angels would be bothered
if i am cosplaying as them. sorry to mercy's default skin. and i change what is my favorite color (currently mine is light blue)
and i might change my favorite animal (wombats because fluffy) and i change some other random things. well, each of these times
has a certain theme and everything changes but the chapstick does not change, because i have a ton of them and i'm doing them in
alphabetical order! so the berry agua fresca chapstick will represent a chapstick amount of time and i will always remember it
when i smell it. but once i use up all of my chapsticks, then i will buy a new chapstick. it will be an extremely attractive
chapstick because that will be my theme. i will have an attractive hand sanitizer and other fragrant things. some of them will
not be specifically attractive but they will be soft girl aesthetic.
i am not yet to the point where i have an attractive hand sanitizer, or an attractive chapstick. but i shall tell you about the
fragrances of the current items! i have a berry agua fresca chapstick and a mandarin orange hand sanitizer and then i guess my
hair conditioner also smells nice but idk what the fragrance is supposed to be, and i have a clean flavored deodorant (i did NOT
taste it but i'm just saying flavor because i already said fragrance 2 times).
ok so the next thing is put the chapstick in my purse, and then put the vaseline in my purse. my mind exploded when i found out
that vaseline and gasoline are made out of the same thing. it is so perfect because they rhyme, and i always wondered why they
rhyme and now i know. please do not use the products interchangeably, i do not think it is healthy. ok now i will put the rest of
the things into the purse and the backpack! the coffee is wearing off so i must drink more, goodbye!
250pm
i finished listening to the existential crisis playlist and now i'm listening to a random ratatouille playlist. i am feeling more
french by the minute. ratahottie absolutely COOKED in that movie. dreamy sigh probably. oh here comes the song where he is using
ingredients to make soup. or is it the song where he is in granny's ceiling? i cannot tell. ok back to schedule now but i had to
tell y'all about the ratatouille. oh here comes like a romantic rat song? ok schedule time!! wait no its 255pm so that means
minecraft time in like 4 minutessss yay!
259pm
has anyone noticed that bluetooth can go up the stairs but not down the stairs?
411pm
is anyone else craving SCONES?! i have done a minecraft and now it is schedule time again! i successfully got everything in my
purse and backpack earlier so yay! i need scones to live!!!! i asked my mom to put chocolate chips on the groceries list because
i hopefully want to make chocolate cookies within the next few days! i am just having chocolate pudding now
420pm
the next thing on the list is have a food and listen to music. that sounds like a good plan. my dad is cooking up a marriageable
recipe which is some sort of casserole thing. like the recipe is literally called "marry me" which is why it is so marriageable.
i am not going to marry anyone (soon) but i will probably still eat that. the kitchen noises are suddenly making me feel
overwhelmed idk why because they are not even that loud!! but i turned the ratatouille back on in my headphones and i am possibly
feeling less overwhelmed now. it is pretty useful to know which things make me feel bothered. for example, i feel bothered if i
am hungry, full, or if there are noises. because then i can do things about them instead of just feeling bothered! i used to
become a dramatic person every time i was bothered which was not good for the other people. i am trying to quit doing that, but
it is a bit difficult. the ratatouille definitely helps though
709pm
i dared to turn my youtube watch history back on and SOMEHOW my recommendations are actually incredible lately!! i am so happy about this.
1007am
hello today is such a vibe. yesterday i ate sour patch kids, and today i ate some cookies. i also had coffee and orange flavored yogurt which was delicious. the rest of the today
is a secret for some reason. actually i know the reason. it is not dramatic it is just fun. idk what im saying. goodbye
1103pm
hello to sofos journal! it has been so long since i used a sofos journal! i have been writing in my regular journal and also in no journal. i kind of had a dread from writing on my
website so much but i am determined to remove the dread. mostly i was like "ugh i do not want to have any people looking at my website." so i was like "ooo i could make a website
that no one can look at" but then i had a worry that someone would find it and look at it anyway. so i might as well write on the regular website lol.
well anyway i am going to make a minecraft page because i want to write down what i am doing in minecraft! i will go do that now
btw i just played some minecraft with delta/artemis/whoever and not with theta because she was too tired, and i had to stop playing minecraft at 11pm because that is when my
internet becomes too slow to play any multiplayer minecraft. however, i can still play singleplayer minecraft during those times! in fact, i could stay up all night playing
singleplayer minecraft because my internet goes off at 1230am but singleplayer minecraft does not require any internet!
also, i just got the BEST resource pack ever. i forgot what it's called but basically it makes your minecraft look like an ALPHA/BETA MINECRAFT!!!!!!! as in, every block in the
current version of minecraft is stylized to fit the original style! which is AMAZING because it removes the dilemma of "i want the grass to be painfully lime green" and "i want to
have more than 4 blocks to build my house with." this resource pack brings joy to my life. and it is even up to date!
10:04pm
i just realized i should update this some more but likeee there is nothing to write.
11:25am
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